i think its because i vomited a few times after i reached home from work. negativity surrounds me. in a nutshell, these sums up my thoughts for today:

- i hate office politics. and i am always the one stuck in the middle because ppl 'ventilate' to me.
- i hate my boss. she wants me to take 3 months maternity leave and then clear the rest in stages. wth. i think she has no compassion. she didnt even ask about my opinion and how i felt about it.
- i hate my job... i just do, do, do for 4 fucking years and no one appreciates me. seriously, only when i am going to resign that they actually promoted me. and its not even a Senior Exec. sheesh.

i am even more adamant now that it is time to move on. i have wasted enough of my energy here for 4 freaking years.